when matthews little sister texts me telling me that i’m her favorite out of all his other exes and hopes that he keeps me forever, just puts a big fat smile on my face. they’re so cute, i swear.

Matthew, I know you know you’re handsome, and i know other people know that too, but in all honesty, you’re the most handsome man i have ever laid my eyes on or have had the pleasure of dating/knowing. I know you doubt yourself and i know you have insecurities and i know a lot of the time you may not let other people belittle you, but you belittle yourself. i can’t see why, i really can’t. You have the biggest heart i have ever come across and it’s so beautiful and strong no matter how much you may doubt that. we’ve been through a lot the past two years, but mainly these past few months, but i wouldnt change them for anything because i’ve only gotten to know you more and better. i know you better than you think and i know your habits, your intentions, what you think about yourself, anything. i may not know you as much as i want to, but we’re getting there and i couldn’t be more grateful. you’ve taken a strong hold over my heart and honestly matthew cody stavrous miller, i don’t think i’d ever want it back. i know it’s not something most people would want to say nor hear, but im attached, im attached to your looks, your personality, the way you talk to me, or the little things you say that make me all happy that other people wouldnt notice. i melt every time you tell me you love me, every time you call me baby, laugh, or say “ahhh” or “oh” before you continue on with your introduction, when you say hella, when your voice changes from all happy to sometimes annoyed or even sleepy, those things all have such an impact on me. i wouldn’t change anything about you, ever. you have one of the most genuine and sincere personalities i have ever met and you shouldnt belittle or downgrade yourself the way you do because none of what you say or think is true. i know you’re good, loving, funny, witty, passionate, charismatic, genuine, smart, my god are you smart, wise, genuine, and i know you have such a good head on your shoulders. you’re such a brave and strong man and sometimes you may label yourself as weak, but my god, for putting up everything you’ve been through or put yourself through, “weak” wouldn’t even come close. i love you more than anything in this whole entire world and all of the time i just want to swoop you in my arms and kiss you, hold you and never let you go, love you more than anything i have ever loved before, show you how much i love you, but i know that those things are going to take it’s time and i know those things will only come good with patience. i don’t ever want anyone other than you, now, tomorrow, next week, or years from now. you’re all i ever wanted and you’re all i’ll ever want to have. i’m not gonna let you go, i’m not gonna let you run, i’m always here, forever by your side, and most of all forever yours. i’m your shoulder to cry on, your girlfriend, your other half, your heart, and your person, i’m yours, all of me, i dont belong to anyone else but you. one of the greatest things about you that i love is your past. i love what you’ve become out of it, i love what i know you’ll become in the future, i love that you’re not perfect and never will be, i love that you’ve made mistakes and arent afraid to admit your follies, your regrets, your mistakes, anything. your past is what makes you, you, your past is what is going to mold you into the person you will be years from now, and i know you’ll be even greater than you are now, and you’d never stoop down to your fathers level, you’ll never amount to him, i know that, and i don’t doubt it, i dont doubt you. i know you doubt my happiness sometimes and the fact that you sometimes think i don’t make you happy, but my god, you do. i’m sorry if im not good at showing it and i know the things i need to work on, and i’ll always work on them, i’ll never give up, but don’t ever assume you don’t make me happy, don’t ever think less of that or yourself. you’ve got a heart of gold, you’re pure, wholesome, and most definitely mine. i love you so much baby, for now and for always <3